And just like that there’s a “NEW VARIANT” to distract everyone from the gas prices and the shit storm this Administration has been.
I have lived my life with a lot of regret(having an reading disability when i was younger, not doing well in high school with my grades, not playing high school sports which may have help me get int... View MoreI have lived my life with a lot of regret(having an reading disability when i was younger, not doing well in high school with my grades, not playing high school sports which may have help me get into a better College, not following through with the WV State Police, working in a job that I ABSOLUTE HATE!!). But If I have done anything different then I am have never had the BEST thing that ever happened to me, Meeting Angie and have OUR kids(Madison, Olivia and Nicholas). I have tried to be a good husband, father and provider i could (working 2 jobs 7 days weeks for over 70 hours week) but it seem like I always end up screwing something up. I not anymore if I believe in GOD. So Many things that I have prayed and prayed for seem to go unanswered. I it's on his time but if that true why can he see me suffering inside. I talked to him every morning and night. I attend church almost every sunday even with no sleep or a few hours from working the night before. I can't talk to anyone because I feel ashamed and no worthy, so this is how I am getting my feeling out. I know that there is no one that can help and that this is all on me and the choices I have made. although I have my debuts about GOD I still pray every night and say the rosary every day I drive to work. I look around and see people and wonder if anyone feels this way but they seem so happy. My life outside of work is great but the thought of work consumes me everyday every minute. Is there any end to this feeling or I am going to be like this til I retire. I can even get ahead enough to start saving for my kids college and Maddie will graduate high in 1 year(yet another failure on my part). I really don't know how to seek help for this, getting another fulltime job is not an option now as I can't take a pay cut to start all over somewhere else. I am exhausted all the time and don't even like to workout anymore because I am to tired and always have work on my mind. The only time I seem not to think about work is when I am watching my kids play the sports they love or when we doing things as family which is hard now with me working all the time, so Angie takes the kids place so I can sleep and i feel guilt because I want to be with them. GOD if you are there PLEASE let me know somehow someway, I really need you NOW. PLEASE!!!!!!
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