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From: Bleeding Evolution <bleeding3832@gmail.com>
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From: Bleeding Evolution <bleeding3832@gmail.com>
Date: May 14, 2022, 4:10 AM -0400
To: Billy Hillman <billy.hillman@yahoo.com>
Subject: Filler
Some ask how i stay outside a circle...its easy for me, but not knowing other strange people can sometimes be a Godsend...i dont know many in rock hill, the chester crew at palmetto village all died and im alone here in this state, but yes i have family in like 6 states....
I guess the reason im safe, usually, is because im at peace with myself...theres "filler" tho, like me adding landscape photos in my photos i cook...filler...everythings got to be made up for...colors, shapes, sizes, faces, families with families..ect...i change my house up all too often i think, but might be a good idea to change it up once more...thats from me...begging for forgiveness can be a pain sometimes..
Im aware things are changing...i was aware of Carl all along but just couldnt see right in front of my nose...it came to pass, but i never could let go of something good...good as in stood up for me...id need a dumptruck to put all the fingers ive given people in the past for fucking me, but some never left, even if i did...i never go back to where i moved from...i was sorry i returned to chester, to find almost everybody at that facility had passed...always seems someones "in" thing when i leave, everyone passing...im more aware of that than others tho..ill even warn them of what might happen if they screw me...and its not things ive said, just my mind wandering on subjects about how i was treated would cause something like that...my father is a staunch perveour of ethics...
So all in all, things have changed, we are back at square one, everyone is still alive and we are all looking around for whats next...i dont know...im aware they tell me that if everythings is taken from you, i must change too...i knew my father would do it sooner or later..he tries, he really does...he keeps me alive tho regardless...what we have in here now is the fuck crew...it needs to change but you know, i may even get pulled into it too...they dont seem to want what i have...it led me to way before when the blacks were thru listening and denying everything, that i said to my father i was done here...then the rain came, and came and came....
Now everybodys new, nothing is as it was but more must be built now...im still not planning to leave...thats a good thing...
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