photo #2083389

So.Here's what a hand looks like, after it's been degloved, severed and then reattached. When I got my hand stuck in the grain auger in 2019, I thought it might just be a bunch of stitches and maybe some surgery for muscles.When they rotated the blade, I felt a release of pressure and numbness and I was all, "Awesome, no harm no foul." But then when they rotated the thing a second time, my whole hand fell off in to the grain bucket and my wrist was a mangled mess of gore that looked like the end of a gnawed turkey leg with spaghetti falling out of it. Come to find out that was mostly blood stained glove threads. Thankfully. Cuz they were everywhere. So, I promptly picked that hand up and held wrist to wrist like I was waiting on glue to dry, then everything was gonna be good. Eventually the reality of my lost limb sunk in and I felt retarded, so we just put that sucker on ice once the ambulance showed up.Up at OHSU, Dr. Solomon was able to reattach the hand, but I lost from the ring finger over. Also the ring finger. The rest, they said they could have salvaged and maybe even gotten 20% response back in. But that would require muscle tissue to be removed from my stomach to rebuild my wrist.Here's where it was on the day we decided to amputate instead of rebuild.I didn't want to have other parts less stable just to accommodate something I had written off as Impossible already, especially at the cost of what precious little muscle I do have.Plus, admittedly, I kinda wanted a robot hand anyway. So, choppy-choppy, and three days later I was out of the hospital, after the longest 12 days of my life and a brush with death.Apologies if these gross anyone out. I found them fascinating.