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The LOST one; I had many moments that I could have changed my, yours and our fate; to many to count, way too many passes of the moon, the sun, the falls the springs, as I sit here today, I see that this winter nightmare, this middle summer dream, is no longer so as fate could have told, what was once so colorful, is so black and white; as I slowly drift away, free-falling, not knowing what is held for me, you and us but has past by in the grains of time, the waves of the sea, the fast passing river and it's now only a memory in the cold dark winds, footprints that was once so easy to see that has been long lost in the blizzard of the snow storm, but still can be felt by the hot burning of my longing soul that has been stolen from me. You are my heaven, losing what was found, lost in the compromise, so how, so down, forgetting all the questions, reflections of the days, the time, only faith that I still hold, but my faith is shattered, we are so battered, heart so broken, run, run which was once so fun, who our you, what are you, where are you, your it, you have always been it! Your my rain in the desert, my flood in the ocean, don't want to waste anymore time, anymore sleep, like wishing for heaven, misplace thoughts, dreams like drop of rain, running like rivers, cuts on a face, blades in my heart, it don't all seem that far a way, as i fall, we fall like the leafs, blow away in the wind as I hold you close, thousands of thoughts rushing like the ending of the river at the falls. Heaven don't seem far a way as it was once, change in the weather as I stand, in the forest, o why can't I sing these notes, say these words, how, o how has so much time passed, misplaced trust, forgoten innocents, I was praying we end up together, to broken to breathe, old friends, can't rest, nights with regrets, holding you close, pushing you down, down, away, it all seems so far away, you are my heaven, why can't I just take what I need, closer then most, I jump up in the water, but I sink away, don't want to waste this train ride, misplace words, can't find the words, why can't I just let to be, just like a wish, a change in the weather, I wonder why I can't keep warm, I just can't let you be, I just can't let this be, you just can't see, your so blind to me, so broken, misplace and washing away with the storm. It would be just as a thought it would be, never count the regrets, its like snow in the summer and rain in the winter, o how I want it to be, it was so perfect, painful little storm in my dreams, was like rain on my pillow, rivers running wild and free, holding you closer, just can't let this be, as in time the leafs change and fall away, I was blind by sun light , the snow cover us, so cold, it was like rain in the ocean, the smell of the storm that comes with the grace, i was a boy, that turned to a man, running, and stopping, hope dies, silence in the midst of the clouds, proof of time, faith is all I hold, like the perfect dance, the perfect kiss, the perfect moment, so lost in this storm, a perfect storm, waves crashing, I don't want to swim, everything has always come back to this, I die never day more, I want to pick up the pieces, I'm out of touch, out of sight, of all these things rush in my mind like a storm. just for me, just for us, just for you, your my one, always, my home, been at sea way to long, stuck in the storm of time, sinking in the water, it is like wishing for rain in a flood, ending up so lost, ending forever, a change in the weather, I always thought I get around to heaven, but I can't and don't rest, and just can't let it be, someday, it is time to go, let go, come to the port, home to my heaven, it seems so far away. You are my heaven ? The One!By: Robert Alexander