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I am trying my darnest to make my wrongs right. I am sorry for every wrong thing I ever did and / or said to you and everyone. If this is it for me, then so be it. I am ready to go home. I feel like I am losing my mind. I just want to scream at the top of my lungs 🫁 I feel like I have no way out. I feel trapped at the poor decisions I have made in my life. The definition of insanity is repeating the same thing over and expecting a different result. A mistake is when you realize and / or learn from it, and you make a big move to improve one's situation. The sad thing is that it might be too late, and if so, then it is my fault 100 percent nobody else's fault. I am not where I want to be or need to be not because of you or anybody else but I am not where I need to be and or want to be because of my fault and my fault alone. I am trying to figure this out and how to move to where I need and want to be in my life. I am standing in a room full of people screaming as loud as possible, but the funny thing is nobody hears me, and this is all because of my mistakes and flaws. My hardest thing I face now is accepting what is and the situation I am in because of my mistakes and bad choices I have made in my life that affects my wife and my dog 🐕 Thoreus Allen Reid My Chihuahua who is one of my best friends. I think maybe that I need to isolate myself from everyone, try to figure this out on my own, and deal with this in hopes of achieving and coming up with a successful solution. I feel and think that myself achieving success is impossible and will never ever be achievable.I am not going to force people to like me. I am not going to chase after them either. I feel people should be around me because they want to be and I will always chase and pursue my dreams and goals but I think and feel the reality of all of this is that no matter how hard I try and how hard I pursue I will never ever achieve my dreams and goals. This is reality, and I must accept this fate. It is what it is like the saying goes. Thoreus Abomindoom Maethinos Maethinos Enterprises And Entities Wimkin.Com