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BACON RANT:I do not understand where the emotions come from that people discern from statements I felt were emotionless. Though this is going to be relevant to a handful of people, it is aimed at no one in particular. This is an accumulation of occurrences that have been an issue throughout my life, and it is not unusual for me to address it. PLEASE, don't try to find hidden meaning in my words or attempt at reading between the lines. There's nothing for you to unearth. I am not one to hold back my thoughts. I am not eluding to some deeper emotion; if I dont say I'm mad or upset about something then I truly am not upset. It takes a whole heck of a lot to piss me off, and if I am pissed I will tell you. I assume people just overthink my word preferences as aggressive or contentious undertones; I merely wish to be precise in my choice of words. Some people, my ex-husband included, aren't fans of how I speak either and mistake my to-the-point and matter-of-factness for irritability. Unfortunately, often when I assert that I no longer want to have a conversation for sake of conserving peace and comfort (in efforts to avoid irritability), I am met with hostility or even taunted for my "lack of maturity". I am largely indifferent to this claim; I dont see how senseless arguments over non-issues are necessary for anyone. Occasionally, I encounter situations where my outward kindness or flamboyant happiness is misconstrued as flirtation or phoniness. It has landed me in some awkward and disturbing predicaments. I assure you, I am not the type of person to pull off fakeness. Im too blunt and raw. I dont like drama or play games. If we're not romantically involved, I'm never being coy. Just blunt, and you're massively overthinking my words. Ironically, I'm sure someone will inevitably perceive this to be something it's not. See, I'm guilty of overthinking too! Nevertheless, there's always someone. I hope this helps at least even one person to better understand how my brain works and eases or prevents future dilemmas.