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#955DaysCleanAndSoberToday I am grateful for... OpportunitiesOne morning after breakfast at my first long term recovery center, I was walking back to my dorms to get dressed and ready to start my day, when I passed a window and saw one of the staff members preparing an insulin needle. As a Recovering needle junkie who was still in detox mode at the time, I literally collapsed at the sight of it. I can't explain it, the sight of the needle triggered me in a way that had never triggered me before. I didn't know what to do, I grabbed a peer mentor and asked for help. He referred me to someone that could relate more to my situation, but that guy dropped the ball, so I began talking to anyone that would listen until I finally talked myself out of leaving rehab. I learned that day the power of talking out my feelings. With the pandemic, AA meetings were shut down for a while so I have used the Book of Faces as my platform to talk out my feelings to prevent relapse. Now, on the TV, everyday, ALL DAY, there are needles, nonstop across the screen, on every channel, in commercials, on the news, in the little click ads on websites, it is exhausting. So, every time I see a needle on TV, I am going to take the opportunity to say a quick prayer for anyone else that sees a needle, for any reason, to be blessed. That includes the healthcare workers that are administering the vaccine. There will be plenty of blessings going around so make sure you take the time to get yours.